Re-adaptation

I don't know if I still have anybody reading my blog...you guys probably got tired of checking it out for new posts. It's 1am and I am wide awake...like most days, I can't seem to be able to go sleep before 2am...sometimes even 3am. Is is my body getting used to the time difference? I don't think so...it's been a little over a month since I got back from the USA and I can't use that excuse anymore.

So, if you ask me how is it going the re-adaptation, I might answer that it has more downs than ups, but that as always I need a little more patience. I am not used to not working and even though I needed a break, I am bored out of my mind and I feel useless.

For a while now, I have felt like I have no more dreams, which is pretty sad if you think about it. I asked myself that the other day...what my dreams were and I couldn't answer it right away and I confess it scared me.

Of course I know things I want to do in my life, but there is nothing I am really looking forward to, nothing driving me, nothing exciting me. Maybe it has to do with the deception of trusting people and putting your life in someone else's hand and having the rug pulled from under your feet. I do believe that was a mistake, but hey...like I said a while ago...if you never try, you will never know. God knows I wanted to try, but thanks to him, things happened differently and avoided a major headache and heartache for myself in another foreign country.

It's hard to look for a job this time of the year because of the holidays, and for those who don't know, Brazil has a problem, from now on things run slowly, only gets back to its normal speed after Carnaval which next year starts on March, 5th. Hopefully I will have a job before then, otherwise you will hear about me on the news ;-)

I've said this many times before, I live my life with no regrets, the past stays in the past and there is nothing I can do about it...but lately, I know that if I had graduated from the University (I quit on my 3rd year of Business Administration), I would probably be employed by now. Even though my knowledge of the English language is way better than it was 5 years ago, the fact that I was away for 5 years, doesn't help much in getting back in the job market.

If I could, I would just move away to another country...but to do what? Where to? Those are the questions!

Have my fingers crossed that I will have a job soon and then my plan is to go back to my studies and get to the career that has more to do with me and more opportunities that is in the Information Technology area...such a nerd I am.;-P

Let's see what happens...in the meanwhile I have to survive in this heat and humidity that is making my hair look like shit.

Thanks for all the support and I promise I will post more often.

xoxo

Ale