Astral Hell is OVER!

I am finally out of my Astral Hell and let me tell you it took months until I figured out a way of it. It wasn't an easy task but I've come out of it realizing things and seing it from another perspective.

I am the the kind of person that gets bored easily. I need goals to achieve, I need to be driven, motivated, enticed, estimulated to feel like there is a purpose in my life or for waking up everyday and keep going. The problem is that I can't settle for something for too long. That's what got me to the USA in the first place, otherwise I would've stayed in my busy work schedule in Sao Paulo and maintained my once a month visit to the ER due to stress, but at least I would've been close to my family and friends, right? Wrong! I could've never settled for that.

Life is made out of choices, people might say, even I used to say, that we have to sacrifice things in order to get what we want. It's not a sacrifice, it shouldn't be a sacrifice, but a choice that you make and then you live with the consequence of it...good or bad.

I've come to accept at this point that I have a good life here, I am not settling, but I should just hang on to what I am doing now for a little longer and give myself time to improve or to plan the next move. I've come to understand that I don't have to be in a hurry to live my life, that things don't happen overnight and that I shouldn't expect big changes every year.

At the same time I know that there are still so many things I wanna do and that I am not where I wanted to be in my life after being here for almost 5 years, but this is my reality and I should be grateful and appreciate how far I've come.

Still there are few things I am working on overcoming and getting motivated about, but I am taking my time.

For now, I am happy that I don't feel like locking myself in my room and staying in bed the whole day anymore and dragging myself out of bed every morning. Spring is here, Summer is around the corner and I am back BITCHES! ;-D

Thanks for stopping by and reading my boring stuff, I love you for that.

XOXO